You

(An adaptation of Me before You )

‘I am Jealous of the morning sun

Who gets to see you first

Or the coffee cup

Who gets to kiss your sleepy lips awake’

It is now December 20, 2018 one year has passed since that day happened, and one year has passed since he had forgotten. It was that time of the year where the cold breeze of winter was at its worst. People were rushing in malls to buy gifts for their loved ones at discounted price. The weather forecast warned us about a blizzard alert in New York this day. Sam rushed to get the car keys.

“Sam, where are you going?”

“I’m going to buy a gift for mom.”

“Didn’t you hear about the blizzard coming today?”

“Of course, I heard about it but this is really urgent.” but Sam Insisted and grad his coat.

I was worried about him so I decided to go with him. The roads were covered with snow and the glass of the bakery where we buy our bagels for breakfast was moist. The streets were empty and we can only hear the strong whistle of the wind. The sky rumbled. “Don’t worry babe I got you”. After all these years he still has never changed. I thought that couples change after some years.

The snow was falling heavily on us and our wind shield was covered in snow. After a few minutes it was a lot harder to drive as winds become more vicious pushing our car backwards. “Sam I’m scared what are we gonna do?” Sam was holding the steering wheel tightly and holding my hand. Assuring me everything will be fine. Suddenly, the car was moving unsteadily. “Sam, are you sure were okay?”—I was shrieking in misery.

The next thing I know I woke up in a room. The walls were white and tubes were connected onto my body. The side of the bed had a small cupboard with a small flower and a letter that said ‘get well soon’. At the end of my bed I saw a woman crying.

“Call the doctor! Call the doctor now! Emilia’s awake. Thank you lord” ---

“Where am I? Who’s Emilia and who are you?”

People were entering the room and the doctor came.

“Emilia are you alright? Can you see me?”

“Yes I can see you doc. Who are these people?”

The doctor explained what had happened to me. The police found me in a car after a witness saw the car tumble away from the highway. It was hard to rescue us for the car was covered in snow.

“What do you mean by us?”

“You were together with your boyfriend according to your family.”

“Boyfriend? Really? I don’t think have one.”

The police continued to question me about what had happened but I didn’t really remember at that time. “Can I rest for a moment? My head hurts a lot”

The next day, the woman at the end of the bed explained who I was. The woman was my mother and my name was Emilia and I was born in Virginia. I moved to New York when I met my boyfriend Sam. Together we live in a penthouse and we have been together for five years.

Sam’s room was beside mine and he was released one week before me. And just like me he had amnesia. I was discharged from the hospital late because I had more serious injuries. The doctor reminded me to rest for a while and to be careful of my head. I stayed with my parents at their Brooklyn house for a while. It was a small white house that was on the higher part of the neighbourhood. The living room was covered in a patterned wallpaper. Some of the walls were filled with photographs of different people. The next days were spent in the house. Mom explained to me all of the photos and showed me some of my stuff when I was younger.

Until, one day my head started to pound really bad and clips of memories started to come back.

“Mom!, mom! What’s going on?”

“Sweetie! Are you okay?”

“I-I don’t know.”

The next day, I woke up and I remember everything. I remember Sam.

“Mom! Mom!”

“Sweetie, are you okay? How’s your head? Is every----“

“Mom my memories are back!”

My mom cried with joy when she knew that my memories were back. My mom spread the news to my relatives and Sam’s parents. They were glad of my recovery.

The next day, my mom called me to go downstairs and I was surprise that Glinda and Edward were there.

“What are you doing here Glinda?”

“I heard that your memories were back and I want to congratulate you on your recovery.”

“Thank you!”

“Emily, can I speak to your daughter for a while in private?”

Glinda and I sat down and talked about me staying at their house for Sam’s memories to come back.

“I’m sorry Glinda But I won’t allow my daughter to go with you. My daughter is still in a state of recovery she needs all the rest she needs. She needs her family”

“But Mom, it’s a risk I’m going to take. No matter what happens I will always be that girl who will not give up and know that I will always love you more than anything else in this world.” Then my mom hugged me so tight and she cried so hard. I’m sorry mom but I have to do this to bring my Sam back.

“If happy is him then I am happy for you. Please take good care of yourself.” My mom taps my head and hugged me again.

I know it is hard for me and my parents but if this is my fate then I will accept it even if it costs my life. My mom didn’t have any other choice but to allow me to go. It’s breaking my heart seeing my mom crying in front of me. I went to my room and packed some clothes and bid goodbye to my parents.

Their house is still the same after all these years. White washed walls throughout the house and pictures of Sam all over the staircase and some at the dining room.

“Who are you?”

“What are you doing here?”

My heart started to beat so fast because of what he said. It has been long since I saw him. He still looks the same. Messy brunette hair that I used to fix every morning and Hazelnut eyes that would look at me for hours. I know it is hard but I’m not giving up. I will do my very best to get back his memory so that he can remember everything about us.

I moved closer to him and asked, “Hey do still remember me? It’s me Emilia”

He answered, “I don’t know you. Go away and leave now” and he went outside

God I thought that this will be easier but this is harder than I thought. Sam had changed because of the incident but I will not give up on him on us. I hold his hands and utter these words “Promise I will not give up on us. Please Sam you need to remember me or everything that has happened please I’m begging you.” After saying those I let Sam rest and then I went out.

Weeks had past and I tried my best to bring back his memories. I tried bringing him to places that we’ve been before maybe he might remember again. What should I do? I’m running out of options. I vowed with my life that I’ll bring his memories back. I promise that I’ll bring Sam back.

“The accident. My girl. Where is she? Where?” Then Sam mysteriously staring at me and then asked me.

“What is it Sam? Are you remembering something?’

“Who are you? You’re not even Emilia.”

And for that moment I believed that his memories were back. Maybe after all this time he was just faking that he forgot about me. But he didn’t remember me at all not even a single memory. I was shrieking in pain when I heard what he said. I was about to give up but I’ve promised that I should not give and will still continue to fight.

My head hurt so bad that I fainted. “Emiliaaaaa, wake upppp!” I heard a voice a very familiar one but my eyes didn’t open but I tried to open it.

I woke in another room and I saw my mom crying and Sam at the side of the bed. “Mom, What happened?”

“Sweetie, I was so scared. You suddenly fainted. I thought you were going to die.” Then the doctor entered

“Ms. Emilia I have some news for you. Can you please give us some space?”

“What is it doc?”

“I’m sorry Emilia but it seems like you have a tumor in your head and it’s in critical condition. There’s a possibility that you could die in two weeks. We tried to look for a cure Emilia but it seems like we can do nothing about it. I’m sorry, I’ll just tell your family about it.”

Two weeks to make Sam remember again. Two weeks to bring Sam back but the only problem is will he be fine without me. Two weeks is a very small time to bring Sam’s memories again. Will I be able to do it? As soon as I got out of the hospital, I brought some stuff from our old apartment and showed Sam our memories. I tried bringing him again back to our old apartment and bringing him to places. I’m running out of time. I don’t know if I can do this. I’m losing hope. Then, suddenly my vision got suddenly blurry and my head started to pound. All I can see is Sam, “Babe, I remember everything. Please wake up I need you. Don’t Go!”

All I can see are memories when I was young and the first time I met Sam. Memories of Sam and I went by fast. I wanted to hold Sam but I can’t. Goodbye, Sam I hope that you’re okay.

I left him a note.

To Sam,

Hey babe! it’s me Emilia. I know that you still can’t remember me but I hope that you’ll take your time to read this letter. I know that I was quite a bothersome to you. We all know that I was quite hopeless in bringing back your memories. And I know you’ve wonder why I took the chance to bring back your memories. I took the chance Sam because I want to go back to the old times. Our old life Sam I want to go back there. I miss you, my love. More than the waves miss the shore, more than the moon misses the sun. I miss you more with every breath, every beat of my heart. I ache for you to come back home. Sam I just being with you and I would do everything just to go back. I’m sorry that I hide the fact that I have a tumor in my head. And that the doctor told me that I have two weeks to live, so I did what I had to do but sadly I failed in bringing back your memories. I hope that you’ll remember me again. Thank you Sam for all of the memories that you have given me. Sam, I wouldn’t know what living means without you. I wouldn’t know what my life would be without you. Please don’t forget me I’ll always be at your heart. and that if you’ll ever look for me meet me at midnight in the forest of your dreams. We’ll make a fire and count the stars and relive our memories once more. I love you Sam and Goodbye.

Love,

Emilia xoxo